Sunday, April 12, 2015

I can't control the happiness of others

I am feeling more settled in my new job. I completed a large project last week and was so excited to see it come to fruition. To see a printed version of something I design is very satisfying. I am happy in the direction that my life is headed in terms of career. I finally feel like I am in control of my own happiness at work. My days are filled with creative thoughts and I am surrounded by positive people that laugh and talk.

The last few months I have seen people in my life that I love struggle with finding their own happiness. I keep trying to do things to help. Sometimes it seems that I can help in some small way. Mostly it backfires into more unhappiness. I guess you can help or try to help too much. When the other person perceives it as control, you are clearly not helping them. It is hard to step back and watch people you love suffer. It is hard to hear that your actions, although they come from a good place, are not wanted. So, I have to just step back. Work on my own life and simply hope that others will do the same.

I will be focusing on my own life from now on. I cannot let negativity in. Once it is in, it is hard to get it out. I will keep working hard for my dreams. I will keep believing and knowing that I am on the right path. I will keep sending good Karma to all and hoping the best for those I love and value.

But most of all, I will accept that I cannot change things for others.

Sunday, April 5, 2015

When your eyes finally open

It has now officially been a month since I started my new job. What a month! I feel like I had a much needed epiphany.

The people I work with are so positive, happy and creative. My boss is a wonderful leader. I no longer dread going to work in the morning. I actually feel appreciated. It has been quite some time since I have experienced that. In turn, my work is totally changing. I feel so much more creative and happy. It is nice to feel like what you do matters. It is so uplifting to have people compliment and support you in your career. I am so thankful that I made the move...I should have done it sooner.

Although I miss the amazing people I used to work with, I know I made the right move.

There was an important message for me in making the change to a new job...a new life. You will NEVER be SUCCESSFUL trying to impress others or being the hardest worker, putting your job first, staying the latest, working the most hours. No one will ever have your back...YOU have to build and support YOUR own goals, dreams and life.  I learned this the hard way. Through missing out on things in my life, trusting people that I thought were my supporters, missing family events, friends, travel and happiness. All to strive for success..for someone else. I ended up with gained weight, high blood pressure, stress and time I will never get back. 

Real success comes from focusing on YOU, on your friends, on your family, on your health, on your happiness. The company you work for will NEVER value these things for you. I will never make that mistake again. I am happy, I am creative, I am healthier, I am loving my career and the people I work with...that in turn is success. I am focusing on people that care for me, making things that I enjoy and taking care of ME.

Thursday, March 12, 2015

Wednesday, March 11, 2015

It is good to start fresh... Even if it is uncomfortable

I am on day five of my new career. I was hesitant to start a new job as I felt starting over and having to rebuild everything from relationships to all my work may not be worthwhile. After seeing  and hearing from the many new and wonderful people I am surrounded by, I can see many opportunities to grow. I underestimated the great feeling of starting fresh! Woo hoo! 

Sunday, March 8, 2015

Happy New Year!

Yes, I said Happy New Year! I know it is March. For me it is a whole new year. This year has marked a new beginning for many things in my life. Therefore, I felt it was time to update my blog and start fresh. I got engaged on January 21, I started a new job this week, I have a new computer and new design business and I redecorated portions of the house. It has felt good to make positive changes. Life can get stagnant quickly...and if you let it. I have decided it is time to make big changes in my life, so here it goes!